More than ever

I'm on my own.

It's not good

It's not bad

It's just a fact.

How reading helps

LONG TIME AGO

I feel depressed at night. It’s been like that for a while. I cannot sleep sometimes. And I am re-reading a Vonnegut novel (Fates worse than Death), where the character says the words that later on I learn they use at AA meetings:

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference”.

My mind reflects and quiets upon reading this and other Vonnegut quotes, quotes whose pessimistic view I share and feel and I specially like the idea of the “Suicide Parlor”, also shared by the Spanish band Ilegales and their “Plataforma de suicidio colectivo”, with the added twist of the roofs, the color of a well-known cheap hotel chain:

[…] he hypothecated an America in which almost all of the work was done by machines, and the only people who could get work had three or more Ph D's. There was a serious overpopulation problem, too.

[…] the government […] set up a purple-roofed Ethical Suicide Parlor at every major intersection.

AND that’s the only way I get some comfort and can go to sleep finally–well, that and half a sleeping pill.